Jourdan Atkinson, the ex-private chef to Sean "Diddy" Combs, has shockingly broken her silence, fearing that she would lose her own life after witnessing abuses and suffering her traumas working in the inner sanctum of the hip-hop mogul.
Atkinson, who used to plate meals in the very same rooms where power and silence were commodities, wrote on Instagram to share a harrowing story that has rocked not just her world, but the music industry at large. In a video and court documents she shared, she marveled that she is no longer "willing to keep my mouth shut" in the wake of Diddy's recent convictions on two federal felony charges for transporting women over state lines for prostitution.
"This is a miscarriage of justice; she said in her video, describing why she wrote letters to the judge begging not to grant Diddy bail, and they did. He will stay in jail until his sentencing on Oct. 3, 2025, when he faces the prospect of 20 years behind bars.
In March 2025, federal agents came in person to serve her with a subpoena, hoping she'd talk, she says. "I said nothing to them because I was scared," she said. The fear didn't go away when, weeks later, a lawyer representing Diddy contacted her, asking if she needed help paying the legal costs. She interpreted this as not generosity, but as a possible attempt to influence a witness.
Although she was previously scheduled to testify on May 20, 2025, she states that she was removed from the witness list following what she characterized as a breakdown. "I flipped out on the government," she said, noting that she's still "traumatized" and never feels secure.
In a caption to Atkinson's post, she wrote that she was beaten by Diddy in 2008. When she attempted to take her claims to music industry executives, she was allegedly threatened with being "blackballed." She was silenced, she now says, by pure terror, particularly after she had learned about Diddy's alleged abuse of his former girlfriend, Cassie Ventura.
"I thought that if I told on Cassie I'd be unalived," she wrote, using coded language that is common online when talking about death. "I feel like I let myself down and I let her down."
It's not just Combs she's angry at, but denounced a system that she insists protects men like him. "The music & entertainment business is DIRTY! Abuse of women, money, power & drugs is normalized," she wrote. And when it comes to justice? "I want him to get 20 years, and I hope he does get the whole thing, but I'm going to breathe again."
In a letter to the judge, she expressed what so many survivors feel after finally coming forward: "This verdict is a devastating blow. I am afraid that if he is released, I would not be safe." While waiting for Diddy to be sentenced, Atkinson must make do with getting through life with courage, despite still feeling fear after telling the truth.
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